On my 21st birthday my friends and I were in KC
pretty wasted and one of my friends decided to hit this random guy up o
twitter. After a couple of weeks she decided she wants to go up to kc to meet
him. Im like sure ill tag along because I don’t want
you to get kidnapped rapped and killed by this random stranger you met online
and plus im always up for a good time. So we pack up her car with a
nights change of clothes and head up north. The trip was uneventful except for
the AMAZING pizza I got at trk stop
about and hour from spfld. I will still say that that pizza is top 5 best
slices ive had in my life. AND IT WAS FROM A TRK STOP!!! Any who we arrive in
kc and try to find our hotel. We know its in overland park so were thinking it
has to be nice right? Uh no. the room smelled weird, we weren’t sure if the
sheets had been changed and it seemed like the whole entire bathrrom was the
shower. Maybe it was some type of handicapped thing but it greatly annoyed us.
We got in town kinda late so we just waited for her boothang and his friend to
arrive at the room and we started getting ready for the night. I wore some
short little skirt and a crop top becuae
it was summer and im young. Idk remember what raechel was wearing probably
something of the same fashion. After our makeup was just right and we had
snapped just enough pictures for the gram, we piled into his infiniti. I was
sipping on a colt blast because that’s what I had bought on the trip and I
wasn’t really trying to buy drinks in the bar. If anyone has drank a blast they
know that really it only takes like half of a can to get you right. By the time
we had pulled up to the club the whole can was gone, I was sharing with raechel
of course buuut I drank most of it myself. We walk into the club and its
nothing that I had expected. There are girls in cut off shorts and wife beater,
and sneakers. Im sure Raechel and I were the only females in the club actually
dressed like we were going to a bar. So we realize that we are the hottest
things in the room and we were going to act like it. Since I was already pretty
wasted I forgot about my plan of not buying drinks at the bar and bught a round
of shots for raechel and I and a couple of drinks. We take our drinks to the
dance floor and look around for prospects. Yes raechel came up here to visit a
man but Jasmine on the other hand came solo dolo. Raechels dude was trun
. I’m like sure I’ll tag along because I don’t want you to
get kidnapped raped and killed by this random stranger you met online and plus
I’m always up for a good time.
I dint want raechel to get kidnapped because I love her and
shes my best friend. Meeting people on line is something that people in our
generation see as a way our of pur comfort zone and a new way to meet people
who must have a greater life than us. Also people online can be who ever they
want to be . I love watching catfhis because its amazing to see how far people
will go just to have someone that they are comfortable with stick around. My
mom watches a lot of showas that focus on young girls or just women in genersl
getting kidnapped when they are not paying attention to their surrounds or when
they are in unfamiliar places. She’s always a nervous wreck when it comes to me
leaving town an.when I was in panama city beach she made me call her everyday a
just to make sure I was stil;l alive, I was like how about this, ill just send
youi a picture everyday to have even more proof, as the week ewent on the
pictures got progressively drunker uuntill the very last day I got my belly
button pierced and I sent her a picture where im kinda leaning back im lifting
my shirt up and sticking my tounge out, she kiew at that point I was hammered.
She text me back like jasmine whey would you do that? CAUSE IM YOUNG WILD AND
FREE MOM!!!!! Duh.anywhoe eone of the nights I was on the phone with my mom and
these guys invited khan and I up to their room. I told her I might go up there
so id just call her tomorrow when I had some time. She called me at the butt
crack of dawn the next day just “seeing what I was up too” uuhhhh I was
SLEEP!!! She secretly was just calling to make syure that the guys that had
invited us up to their room hadn’t killed me. Shes so freaking paranoid I
sweaaaar. I told her she need not worry about someone taking me because I guarantee
that swho ever it is will bring me back with the quickness.. sometimes
when my mom gets on a snapped binge. The
show where the women kill their boyfriends or husbands for all their money my
step dad jokes that my mom is getting the recipe for how to kill him and run
off with all the indurance money. I know that my mom would never do that but I
wonder why she watches those shows religiously, probably the same reason why I
can sit and watch law and order svu for hours on end. Even thought most of the
thing they talk about on that show are incredibly depressing I its so
intruiging it nthe same light.
Death scares me. It scares me the most out of anything. The
fact that one day I’m going to wake up and mother isn’t going to be roaming
this earth on her own accord almost brings me to my knees. That one day I won’t
be able to hear victor tease me about something that I’m so self-conscience
about but he’s only doing it to make me stronger is unbearable. Most of all one
day I won’t be here anymore is what’s the most earthshattering. Earth does not
revolve around me, but I feel like I’m a pretty big deal. There are tons of
people who love me and a couple that don’t but it’s all fandom to me, but the
fact that I won’t be around to continue to entertain the people that are
closest to me freaks me out. The dark scares me also, that’s where evil lurks
and you never know what’s around the next corner. I think that both of these
fears concede for me because I feel like once you die it’s just darkness. I believe
in heaven and hell but I think that there is a split second where your soul is concise
of what’s going on and it realizes that there is no more breaths in your body
to take, not another pump of your heart to circulate blood through. And that’s
where the darkness comes in, your life doesn’t flash before your eyes, I think
that is all bullshit. Life is way too long to have EVERY SINGLE thing to flash
before you die. I think right after you dies is when you find out why you were
even put here in the first place. One of my irrational fears is that I will die
alone. That I will never find anyone who wants to wake up to me day in and out
for the next 30 years. That when I’m 70 and retired all I will have is a bunch
of clothes and war stories about my nights on the town looking for that special
one. I know that I’m cute and that I have an amazing personality but everyone
has their flaws and sometimes I think that they over power what I’m actually
bringing to the table. I told myself that this year, 2015 I would focus on
bringing myself to the next phase in my life and focus solely on that. That I won’t
worry about who I’m going to end up with or what that person is doing at this
very second right now. Like how crazy is it to think about the person that you
are going to marry and start a family with and build an complete empire with is
just having his very own boring Monday morning.
The dark scares me also, that’s where evil lurks and you
never know what’s around the next corner..
When I was younger my mom used to always scare me. This
makes her sound like a horrible mother but I promise she’s not, she just enjoys
scaring people. I would like to say that this is the reason I’m so afraid of
like everything. My brother used to be afraid of a lot of things to but now
that he’s hit puberty he tries to act like hes a man and isn’t Afraid of anything. Which is a lie but whatever. One
night Victor asked Jarron to take out the trash and he didn’t really want to do
it because it was dark outside. Victor made him take it out anyway and when
jarron came back in he said “if your so scared you shouldn’t be so bad” and
that has always stuck with me. I don’t think that im a bad person but I
definitely do things that I shouldn’t do. And I wonder if that’s the reason im
really so scared all the time. If its not because my mother used to scare me
every chance she got. I cant watch scary
movies about sprits taking over people or taking over their houses and stuff
cause I feel like the spirit can come through the tv and get into you and yes I
do know how ridiculous that sounds but I grew up in a Christian house hold and
I know that sprits and entity and things like that do exist. My roommate love
paranormal things and I always have to tell her to count my ass out. I cant
tell you how many times I’ve gotten tricked into going to the albino farm on
the freaking north side messing around with her.
I cant tell you how many times I’ve gotten tricked into
going to the albino farm on the freaking north side messing around with her.
I don’t even know the
real story on why that part of town is haunted but Renata read all up on it and
how your supposed to put your car in nututral and say all this stuff and the
sprits are supposed to push your car off the brige back onto the road or some
shit like that. Doing all that stuff is exactly the same to me as going in a
crip neighborhood in all red and yelling soowhop. Like who wants to mess with
the dead?! THEY ARE DEAD!!! And haven’t ‘crossed over’ for some reason and im
assuming that if I was dead and I haven’t crossed over in 50 something years id
be pretty pissed off. I mean that’s just me. Like who wants to be stuck
somewhere where no one can see you, you don’t have friends, you can’t eat. Idk
it just sounds so dumb to me. My idea of fun is a large peperoni pizza and a
couple of tequila shots. I want to go visit some of the historic land marks and
places of the civil right movement and maybe some checkpoints or stops of the
underground railroad but I know that savannah GA a lot of that stuff is haunted
and I REFUSE to stay in a place that is haunted. I don’t think I would be able
to get a wink of sleep if that was the case. Seeing Selma this weekend makes me
want to visit those places even more now. That movie was so incredibly deep and
factual about how my people were treated just because they wanted to obtain the
rights that every other American had and what they deserved. I would love to
see the church that was bombed where the four little girls were killed.
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